Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Since high school I have had very noticeable acne, which of course was one of the banes of my existence. Even into and after college a fair amount still persisted. I felt this was wholly unfair, as I was always told it would go away when I became an adult. During these years I tried a variety of face washes, scrubs, what-have-you. Sometimes the blemishes were reduced but never enough to my satisfaction. I am 23 now. A few weeks ago I decided to stop hating my face, and to just love & accept it. This was the only face I had and I was wasting time & energy hoping for a different one. Miraculously after consciously making an effort to love my body & face, the blemishes started to drastically go away. My face to smoother and clearer than it has been since the late 1990s. I had no expectation that this would happen but it sure is welcome. Even if the blemishes come back, I will still love my face, and continue to make a conscious effort if I feel my love wavering.
Friday, April 18, 2008
I did a large load of my husband's T-shirts yesterday. When he got home he thanked me but that did not satisfy me. I had expected him to jump for joy that he now had 15 clean shirts to wear and rejoice at seeing old shirts he had forgotten about. I thought he would think it close to a miracle that I had washed all these shirts. Later yesternight I realized I had these expectations and was attached to the ecstatic outcome I expected from him. I realized that and consciously let that go. Instead I reoriented my focus on the fact I did something nice for my husband and wouldn't have to go scrounging for shirts early in the morning before heading off to work. I also then found it funny that such a menial thing like laundry could affect me so if I let it.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Hello. This website is a place for me to share reflections I have on life (using my life in particular as the prime example). I have made this public on the off-chance someone comes across this and it starts them pondering things they hadn't thought of before.