Thursday, August 21, 2008

the good morning experiment

Yesterday I decided that I wanted to say Good Morning to the people I pass while walking home. Usually I do the just-look-straight-ahead thing, and get very nervous or feel awkward when passing people. I will want to say Hello or Good Morning, but then get too caught up in what they might think of me, "Will I just be annoying them?" That sort of stuff.

All in all, it was a great success! I gave out 5 Good Mornings and got 4 back. The last lady was hooked into an ipod or something, and was the only person who seemed slightly annoyed. I also got an unsolicited Good Morning from a cyclist that passed me (and I happily reciprocated), which was the first a cyclist ever talked to me. So that was nice. There was one older fellow who was shirtless and walking towards me. I seriously doubted if I wanted to say anything to him, fearing he was a creepy, potentially belligerent guy that I didn't want to encourage. But when he got closer, he said, "It was just too hot out," with a laugh, which immediately put me at ease, and I gave him a hearty Good Morning. He returned my Good Morning with much enthusiasm too. It was an interaction that I would have avoided at all costs before, but am glad I put myself to the challenge. I just felt happier and lighter after my Good Morning exchanges, especially so after this shirtless guy one.

There were a couple times I didn't say Good Morning because the people were having a conversation or the person looked like they were taking a few moments to enjoy the river view. I was okay with that. So I'll continue to say Good Morning or Afternoon to fellow path walkers, and work my way up to just random people I may see elsewhere.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

reminder

"What have you been putting up with that you would like to change? Start by releasing your attachment to having things remain the same. Embrace the new! Bring higher patterns, new habits, relationships, and positive changes into your life. Decide to stop giving away your power, being a victim, or feeling you have to accept some situation in your life because you have no choice. Connect with your soul and Divine Self. Draw in the strength and courage to make changes you have been wanting to make. Decide to make your life work and take the actions required to do so. Then, as the energies become more intense, you will find them lifting you even higher and expanding your life in new and wonderful ways."
--Orin & DaBen

Thursday, August 14, 2008

so fuckin happy

As I sit here, reflecting & basking in recent experiences, I can honestly say this time in my life is the happiest I have ever been. More so than my wedding day which society labels the happiest day of your life. I could cry from joy.

The apartment is now so easy to clean.

Aaron's into his second week at a job he's loving.

The farm job is the first ever job where I don't feel it's a job. I feel like I am getting paid to have fun & learn.

My body is getting in good shape quickly from the farming & biking routine.

I have successfully abstained from alcohol even when Aaron buys some.

I work 4 extra hours a week to earn a weekly bag of seasonal, organic veggies, eggs, garlic & etc which has made our eating habits way healthier.

I have family here that I actually like, get to see a lot & have fun with.

So thank you Spirit, God, Allah, Yahweh, Flying Spaghetti Monster, Me, for this peaceful, beautiful period in my life.

And thank you for this Ranch Dip Recipe! I've been making my own ranch so give it a shot if you want something better than the store's:

* approx 1/4 cup Spectrum Naturals Eggless Vegan Light Canola Mayo
* approx 1/4 cup Organic Valley sour cream (a bit less than the mayo)
* tad bit of water to thin it
* 2 tablespoons chopped fresh chives
* 1 tablespoon chopped fresh dill
* 2 chopped garlic cloves
* dash of cayenne pepper
* dash of onion powder

Ingredients can be adjusted to taste.
The longer you let it sit, the more the flavors seep throughout. I just finished eating it with farmed tomatoes, lemon cucumbers and carrots, divine!

Thursday, August 7, 2008

wax & wane

Lately I had been feeling stuck. As though life & my learning was moving at a snail's pace and I was impatient to get moving already. In March, April, May and beginning of June my life felt like such a whirlwind of change & progress, all of which ebbed & settled into what I have now. Now I am okay with that. In my head I had these plans to start massage school right away, and the more into the year I saw that may not happen, the more irritated & concerned I became. It will happen one day, just not as soon as I had planned. Until then, I should not and will not let that sully the perfect days I am living at the moment.

I appreciate now the slower, comfortable pace of the snail. I am not lacking or wanting anything. The part-time jobs I now have are perfect for me. I do not even consider the farm to be work since it's just so much fun & fulfilling for me. Babysitting a 2 yr old & 5 1/2 year old for 9 hours is work, but I enjoy that as well, and am learning quite a lot from it. Plus, it benefits my cousin's family nicely.

My husband just got a job that is second best to what his dream job is, and can still support both of us very comfortably.

So now I will take this time to appreciate the nuances of this less chaotic life.