Friday, April 24, 2009

spring loaded

It is interesting and shocking how one little event can unleash to much emotion. In this case it was a large, hairy spider that shook me up. First off, I am terrified of spiders. My fear exponentially increase the larger the spider is. It wasn't my hysterical reaction to the spider that caught me off guard. Rather this scary event triggered something deeper in me that I didn't know I had; I have thought of about this "something" on and off again, but this time it made me break down and sob that uncontrollable, heart-wrenching sob. It lasted for only a few minutes at most, but was definitely unexpected. I would not have thought a spider that was really no more than 1 1/2 inches in diameter could be the first domino in an emotional breakdown.

I acknowledge that I have these deeper (I guess unresolved) emotions. I just don't know how to take care of them. Maybe time is all that is needed, though I doubt it. It's more like I need to forgive myself, to not lay guilt on my conscience. Because I do feel some of that.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Show my idea some love :)

You have to register to vote, but the winners get $10K for their idea, most of which are altruistic ones. So I figure why not?

My Idea

Saturday, April 18, 2009

fun planning

I have completed the first half of this first massage module; I'm three weeks closer to becoming a certified massage therapist in the county.  This means that I get to start seriously looking at business cards and web designs!  Of course I will only be sticking with friends, family, and people who come highly recommended by the former two.  Still it's nice to have the professional stuff on hand.  Here's a free web template I found online.  I changed the header, and will of course tweek the content, though I'm keeping mum on the business name until it's official.  I already have the web domain registered :)



It has that clean, Zen feel that I'm fond of. The business cards also have illustrated cherry blossoms against a crisp, white background. Finally it's becoming less of a dream and more of a reality. Before I'd create mock sites & cards for this practice, but now I'm actually gaining the skills and knowledge to make it manifest.

So that's basically what I did this Friday and Saturday, aside from the farmers' market and a nice surprise dinner that my husband treated us to.

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Since I've started walking to school my body has responded quite nicely.  It is so much easier to exercise when it is incorporated into your daily life.  My anatomy classes though have taught me the serious importance of exercise & consuming enough water, for starters.  Because of that I have gone back to the gym to do weight lifting/resistance exercises, vital for bone health.  In general people think their bones are a solid, stable mass when inreality your skeletal system is so dynamic and in constant flux.  So drink plenty of water and exercise!  Or else you'll be feeling the consequences, especially as you get older.

I know I have more things to say besides websites & bones, but I need to organize my thoughts more or else I end up rambling like this.

Good night!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

personal dream school

Massage school is going great! It feels like I've stepped through a doorway into a wonderful world of, well in a way, magic. And there are still so many different avenues of massage I can (and will) learn. It's a small, intimate class that I feel very comfortable in. We have to shed our modesty/shame/embarrassment of ourselves for eachother since we practice our massages on eachother. I can't hide that large, hairy mole on my back from everyone forever, nor my pale, stubbly legs. Also, I figure that if I expect future clients to undress for me, I shouldn't have any qualms doing it for class. That, and if anyone does happen to judge my body, they're in the wrong field, and I just shouldn't care. It's all a good exercise for myself.

I really feel this is the start of a new sort of life. I've already started little things like actually drinking a good amount of water a day, where before I just couldn't bring myself to do it, nor care. But after last anatomy class---People, drink water! Please, we really need to! Haha, that's how much of an impact it had on me. Doing the massages themselves feels akin to a slow, martial art like qi gong. You need balance, grace, energy, and form for starters. Then learning the different ways massage can positively effect the body is just astounding! It's even more inspiring to learn all I can.

This post is more me just gushing without any point-- except, I guess, for you to follow your passion. This is only the beginning for me, but it feels so wonderful.